caleb's transition blog

i’ve noticed more body hair on my arm/legs and it’s not that visible because i’m naturally very light blonde but it’s there and i can definitely feel it/sometimes see it. also i’m starting to notice a little bit of facial hair like in the sideburn region, but again it’s not visible because really light blonde.

haven’t noticed any body shape changes. still hungry always, and according to my dad i’ve gotten fat again so whatever (“Last time you were home you were skinny … what happened?”)

gaining upper body strength, which is cool. also my calves are toned af.

face game strong

my voice has lowered a lot which is really cool. the difference is definitely noticeable and i can feel that it’s deeper and i’m losing a lot of my high range (like i used to be able to comfortably sing Good Morning Baltimore and it was perfectly in my range but now it’s too high for me) and gaining lower range / the ability to sustain lower notes that i could hit before

no sign of shark week yet??? if it’s on time it should be coming within the next week but like if it doesn’t come back i’ll be so happy.

i’m getting overheated more easily and that combined with binding is really not fun.

i don’t get sad any less often than pre-t but i’ve found that i’m crying less often than i used to (which was p frequently tbh). it’s a different kind of sadness though, i’m not sure how to explain it. it feels sort of fuller and deeper in a way that’s sometimes scary but mostly manageable. still getting angry easily at things but like it’s not so bad.

still thirsty all the time thanks libido

tomorrow is eight weeks on T, but i have a moment so I’ll update now.

still no changes in hair (arms, legs, face, &c.) either in amount or pigmentation. it’s still all very fine and light and barely there.

no noticeable changes in body shape. still hungry all the time, though.

i’m still gaining muscle pretty easily, and i can feel it in my arms and legs mostly.

still no acne/oily skin on my face. i have noticed, though, that my skin feels different, like it feels sort of rougher/drier?

i think my voice is starting to lower. it’s cracked a few times and it gets sore/hoarse if i talk a lot. i’ll post an update sometime soon.

shark week shouldn’t be back til later, so we’ll see.

i’m irritated a lot more easily and hold on to my anger longer. i’m still getting upset pretty easily at things, but no more or less than before.

libido is p much always firing full speed ahead.

two months on thursday~

hey y’all! so yesterday marked six weeks on testosterone. i’ve definitely noticed some changes, not necessarily between the last shot and this one, but overall since january.

no changes in hair (arms, legs, face, &c.) either in amount or pigmentation. it’s still all very fine and light and barely there.

i haven’t seen any changes, really, in my body shape (i.e. fat distribution and such). i’m hungry all the time, though, and it’s nice to see that i haven’t visibly gained weight.

i have, however, noticed that i’m gaining muscle much more easily. like without really changing anything (i do a little weightlifting workout like once a week) i’ve noticed that my biceps are much mroe muscular, and i can feel it in my chest as well.

no changes noticed in my face (re: acne). i see a lot of guys talking about how they get super oily, but i haven’t noticed any oiliness or any acne. so i guess i’m lucky there. [knocks on wood]

i can’t hear any change in my voice, but i’ve noticed that my throat gets a bit sore and tired-sounding if i’m talking a lot. i’m finding it harder to sing in my higher range for as long as i used to be able to, and have been just as comfortable in my usual lower range.

shark week came and went about a week ago, nothing was unusual about it in any way.

emotion stuff: i haven’t found myself any more or less emotional than usual. i still get upset fairly easily and i still cry just as much as i did pre-t, and in a similar way of reacting to things, if that makes sense. i’ve found that i get irritated a bit more easily, but it’s nothing that’s unmanageable. i don’t particularly find myself too angry, or at least not more so than i usually am at the world. i do have less patience, though, i’ve noticed.

under the cut for stuff that may be considered tmi (libido and downstairs)

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